Can someone be scared when there’s so much loving going on? I’m really scared because the thought of me losing all these people I know and care for is really scary, and I’m scare of not being to fulfill my roles and duties apart from my social life.
I feel like I’ve been out for too many nights and haven’t really talked to my parents. I’m still upset about not having Father’s Day dinner because my dad has been nothing but super supportive - encouraging me for my work, help me with my wall drillings and changing the lights etc. I’m feeling like an irresponsible daughter because I’ve not been earning enough, I’ve been out partying and drinking too much, I’ve been not working hard enough. I’m really scared of disappointing my family and not being good enough.
I’m scare of losing people around me. I don’t know how can I juggle being there for everyone who mean everything to me. I really miss my Ice Queen. I miss Paige and Jie, especially us hanging together even we did just last weekend. I miss my cousins. I miss so many people and yet I feel so helpless in letting them know my misses for them.
I’m so torn now. I want to be so much better than I am now in my job, and I want to be there for all my friends. But most importantly, I want to be able to make myself and my family proud cause right now I feel like a burden to them.
I love you all. 😘
I wish there were necklaces given to us at birth that were half of a unique shape and your soulmate wore the other half and they got warmer the closer together you were and colder the further away you were so you could go on this journey when you’re ready to find your other half so that you could be spared all the pain and heartbreak of being played with by those who don’t take dating as seriously as you do