Fliss' Cache

I was randomly surfing for videos to feed my craving for pretty cakes and I chance upon Cake Boss, and it’s been a crazy addiction.

I’m so intrigued by the whole reality show, it’s so good and impressive that I just can’t stop thinking about the cakes, baking, the fillings, the design and everything. It inspires me to really want to learn everything about baking. Maybe I’ll go work in a bakery or take up some baking lessons?

Well, apart from the crazy cake mania, I learnt a fair bit from the show. It won’t be so successful without the strong family ties that they grew up with and educating their children about. It’s such a tight and huge family with great moral values that it makes me want to be involve in a huge family, better still, have my own huge family. Imagine the amount of craziness, bickering and not forgetting the amount of happiness it can bring. I can shamelessly say (for now that is ) I want to marry a guy who has a huge family and must importantly, an awesome baker!

Anyway, watching the show and seeing how Buddy and his entire bakery team work their magic, I’m so dying to try every single stuffs they make! I shall put this in my bucket list! It makes me want to stay in US for an entire year and goes there every single day and be surprise with their pastry. I’m looking forward to such a day. I think if I achieve that, I’m going to die happy.

Love and take care.

You know, the best kind of reflection is when you starting talking about it. By talking about it, you start to learn about what you really want and somehow attain a certain level of enlightenment.

So, I met my one of my loveliest cousin for dinner - had subway and just talk about her recent trip to Bangkok. Side-tracking, I’m dying to get out of Singapore even to JB for a few hours, I’ll be contented (I hope!). Anyway, we, both young ladies sat down at the sitting area right in the middle of the bus interchange and started our HTHT session.

I deeply adore HTHT session, brings people closer and know more about a person on a deeper level and you see things in total different perspective. Speaking to my cousin really makes me understand how fortunate I am, and I sincerely know that I’m much fortunate and privilege among my peers. At that point, I wish I could do something to help but at the same time I’m feeling really helpless.

I felt I was like a kid, just doing the things I like and never really thought about the consequences; almost like a living in the moment emotions. And there, my cousin had to deal with real life issues like paying bills and having enough to spend etc. I’m ashamed of myself. Truly am.

I’ve been on this topic about my future like forever! I know it’s the same old story but it’s an ongoing old story in a new fashion, undeniable and non-escapable I suppose. In 6 months time, I’m going to be done with University and then it’s all about working and repaying all the study loans. Can’t help but feel lost, nearing the beginning of a new chapter of my life, nearing the end of education/varsity. I honestly don’t know what’s install for me.

I really just want to be happy from deep down and be able to do something I truly love - like a simple cafe boutique where people can come by and sip coffee or just read a book or simply HTHT with their friends. Then I want to be able to travel and meet new people, perhaps fall in love somewhere and start a family.

I’m feeling jittery about this whole near the ending of a chapter and near a beginning of a new chapter. Shall see what will come.

Love and take care.