Fliss' Cache

I’m so in love with cupcakes - the vast decorations choices and the amazing colours and flavours that you can fused into it! SO MUCH LOVES.

Not just cupcakes! But all cakes and desserts. I might want to try to make my own birthday cake this year! Haven’t decide on that. But I’ll love to try to use fondant and icing!

So excited! Then again, school starting soon which means less time to bake!!! HOW?

I never actually expect anyone to read my tweets and fulfil my wish! I’ve gotten my birthday wish for once - an early gift, a much wanted CD of Adele’s lastest album. Thank you very much Francis!!!

I’m listening to all the tracks and losing myself in it. I believe she must have gone through so much pain that give rise to all the beautiful yet heartwrenching lyrics. I’m loving all the tracks and wishing for a working discman now! How nostalgia, isn’t it.

I’ve been questioning myself a lot lately after knowing the truth that I was hidden from, intentionally or not, not that is important but I wish I knew earlier. I question my attitudes to them, I want to and have been displaying a tad coldness and being fake. Totally disgusted by myself, why the “hate” (hate is really a strong word, but I can’t find another appropriate word to describe) when love wasn’t meant to be judgemental and it’s every ounce of person’s free will. I just found my truly ugly self, the self that’s so ugly that nothing will purify it. I really want to take some time off them because I don’t think I’m strong enough to sail through it all no matter how I want myself to be strong. I’m no longer affected emotionally but I don’t want to feel the need to disguise myself and be fake because it is really tiring to put up a front and act as if nothing happens.

I guess I’m coming to terms to it, I just need a little more time. I’m almost reaching the point where I can let it all go and start fresh. I’m a little surprised at myself for being able to step back and breathe and look at it semi-rationally. Perhaps I wasn’t so attracted to you after all, and so it’s a perfect reason to be happy and not be affected.

I’m feeling so calm right now, just listening Adele. It’s the best remedy for my soul. So serene and at ease, like heartbreaks (okay, not entirely but as a metaphorically) was meant to be and we could all be free from it and learn to be happy from within.

Love and take care.

I will in attempt to write an organized entry this beautiful Saturday (late) morning.

Holiday is about to end, and guess what, I felt like I haven’t done much and seem like time wasted. But then again, I did enjoy myself on most occasions so it’s cool I guess. I haven’t even work on my resume which I promise myself to do this holiday cause I’m graduating real soon and then it’s all about the job-search process! OMG.

Come to think of it all, this holiday I didn’t get the opportunity to meet my darlings and many of dearest friends at all. What the hell am I thinking? Honestly, I really miss them a lot. Then I ask myself, “Why I didn’t ask them out?” I guess it’s another felicia-syndrome of mine - being homey and wanting to spend time at home and save some money. I really wonder if we will all still be in contact after 5 years, especially those in my secondary years and poly years.

Anyway, I don’t think I’ll ever write an organized entry about anything so I’m going to digress whenever. Speaking of friends, there’s always a type of friends you always don’t know how to befriend and maintain the friendship - the type where you thought you can trust but end up hiding more stuffs from you. Oh well, recently hear some news about the tree and apparently things has changed between him and the girl he liked. Didn’t know what to react or how, but either way, I couldn’t feel anything so I reckon is a good sign. Just wish I knew instead of being in the dark where everyone around me knew, like I’m some of fool. I’m continuing on my journey to search for a better tree - a sturdier and eloquent tree.

Oh, my dress from ASOS arrived and stupid Hotmail blocked my account. I’ve officially lost all my contacts and emails from that account, thanks DUMB IDIOTIC HOTMAIL, what fucked-up services you! The dress is here and so I’m officially excited to go to Pei Wen’s birthday party! And I can’t wait till the 10th where I’m so going to club till the morning of 11th and gonna scream ‘Happy Birthday’ to myself at 12. Me and my crazy thought, chances are, I won’t remember to do it. And hopefully no school on the 11th because unfortunately, it’s the first day of Uni semester. What a kill joy! I should really start enjoying it all and then focus on the sem, graduate and get a job to pay my debts and see what splendid opportunities lies in front. Feeling a tad positive about it now. And I wanna travel travel travel.

Love and take care.

I was quite skeptical about going to Union Camp and never would I thought it will be great fun since I’m not the ‘rah-rah’ type of person. But I was really wrong. Everything seems to fall into places nicely as the whole started. It’s definitely worthwhile.

It begins with welcoming the freshies and breaking the ice with them. Not that easy but we did it and at the end of day 1, everyone is beginning to be comfortable with one another. And by the beginning of day 2, I’m calling them my babies! They are the nicest and loveliest babies I will get - no complaints from making them walking wrong way, ever wanted to join us even though they dont get to play, no one requested to leave midway, really sporting and took a lot of initiative and not forgetting one of the prettiest and most handsome group. MUMMY LOVES YOU CORNGEE BABIES.

Loads of memories flooding the facebook wall. <3 One last semester and I’ll be graduating and I get to meet a nice bunch of freshies who are so ever lovely and understanding given my short-tempered that I give them - I’m a little guilty though; and they are among the best of people I can ever know. Can’t wait to meet up with all of them soon.

Time flies indeed, and my years in Uni have been nothing much than fruitful. I’ve got to know many awesome seniors and friends. I hope I can stay in contact with as many of them as possible. I don’t know what Uni will be without these great people who have taught me many more things. I hope my last sem is gonna be awesome and shall make the best out of it.

This summer have been a gigantic much of loves, from within and externally. Can’t be more thankful.

I’m glad I’m moving on great even though I’m still affected by what happened recently, though I’m so relieved that I didn’t see it. Otherwise, I might flip and potentially killed the night. I just don’t want to be in a situation where I get to see what I don’t wish to and yet have to, and I’m glad it’s going to end soon. I don’t hate nor dislike, just that it’s better not to be there. And of course, it really doesn’t matter after all I’m always lusting for the cup of tea that was never meant for me.

Okay, I just wanna said that seeing your reaction that night, I felt the pain and sadness on your behalf. I wish I was weak enough to tears so that I don’t have to have my walls up around you. Maybe joining the MC was a mistake, inflicting unnecessary emotions on myself each time. I really wish I find out earlier and save myself, and honestly, I was foolish enough because there were like a million tell-tale signs. I regret not confessing because thinking back, if I did, I would be so heartbroken and all these will have really don’t matter. Instead, here I am trying and acting like it’s none of my business. Truth to be told, I really wanna scream at you but I know I never will have the courage. I’m done because I’m ready to complete the semester and graduate without anymore hiccups.